Friday, March 11, 2011

Roller Coaster of Emotions

Let me start by saying thank you to everyone who has prayed for us and the situation in Ethiopia. Thank you for your encouraging words and messages. We still don't know for sure how all of this will affect our adoption and the many orphans of Ethiopia. Basically, there are still a lot of unknowns.

Some moments I feel at complete peace and the next moment I am fighting away tears. In the midst of all of this our dog, Jasmine hurt herself on Wednesday. We found out she may need an expensive surgery and we are not sure what to do. We will take her to a vet on Monday for a third opinion. I know this may not seem like a big deal, but it just brought out so many emotions for me.

Our agency is doing their best to keep us informed and I am so thankful for all the people at AGCI. I can't even imagine what their week has been like. I am also so thankful for my AGCI family. I know without a doubt that I am not on this journey alone. We have been praying together from all over the country. We also have been rejoicing this week as several families have received referrals and court dates.

We have not heard from our case worker about our March numbers due to how busy they have been this week. However we do know our unofficial numbers are for a girl:
We moved 15 spots since last month, which is the most we have moved since getting on the list in December. We are very excited to finally be moving!
We have also moved at least 3 spots on the siblings list bringing our unofficial number for sibling to

With all of the uncertainties and unknowns I have been clinging to the One who is constant and always good. I have found comfort in His word and in His presence.

"Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7

"The earth is the Lord's and everything in it, the world, and all who lives in it." Psalm 24:1

"No one whose hope in you will ever be put to shame, but they will be put to shame who are treacherous without excuse. Show me your ways , O Lord, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long." Psalm 25: 3-5

My hope does not come from numbers or decisions made by government officials or in what emotion I may be feeling at the moment. My hope comes from the God of the universe who cares for me.


  1. Hey, Meredith,

    I've been thinking about your family a lot this week. Definitely praying for you! I'm sorry about your dog--that is hard stuff--praying that you'll get good news and that you'll have peace about any decisions that you have to make about surgeries.

    ~Gini :)

  2. Love your new numbers!!! Praying like crazy!!

  3. Meredith, I pray that God will continue to bring peace to you. Wish I was there to give you a hug!!!

  4. Meredith - your right! Everything that is happening with each one of us - has passed thru God's hands first. The movement in the lists is great. We are continuing to pray!

  5. I am praying right there with you Meredith. I know that God doesn't blink at an eye at all this, and I know He will defend the orphans of Ethiopia; however,I can definitely sympathize with the roller coaster of emotions you are experiencing!

  6. I am new to your blog, but I wanted to let you know that I am praying for your family!