Thursday, January 20, 2011

The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow ( I Hope!)

It has been a really dreary couple of weeks. I can't remember the last time the sun came out. I am not a fan of cold weather, especially yucky, rainy, cold weather. My three year old told me on our way to MDO that the sun is hiding in his tree house. I saw that it is supposed to be mostly sunny for the next two days. I really hope that's the case.

I also have been feeling a little dreary myself for the last couple of days. I am sure the weather isn't helping with this mood I am in, but I know that lack of referrals from our agency is a big part of this. We just got on the list in December and I knew that we would have a long wait and I don't personally expect to get a referral for our daughter for at least a year. However, I did think we would see some referrals going out. We worked so hard to make it on the list and now I feel like we are stuck. My heart goes out to the people at the top of the list who are waiting for that precious phone call. I would also love to move out of the 90s.

I really never expected the adoption process would be easy. I knew there would be lots of paper work, large expenses and long waits, but I didn't realize how emotionally difficult it would be. My heart breaks for the 145 million children who need families. I want to make a difference. I want to change the life of a child. My heart is broken.

One good thing about having a broken heart is that it causes me to cling to my Savior. I am constantly crying out to Him and I know He hears me. This waiting game is not easy, but thankfully I am not alone. Today I feel discouraged, but I know I won't stay this way for long.

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Cor. 4:16-18


  1. I think the lack of referrals is starting to get to alot of us...praying they come pouring in really soon!!

  2. That's a great verse for right now! I never thought the lack of referrals this early in our wait would affect me the way it has. After months of frustration with our home study I am trying to hard just to be thankful that we are FINALLY on the wait list but man a referral or two would do my heart some good!

    And at least we have the retreat to look forward to, whenever I am feeling down I think of that and it makes me giddy with excitement!

  3. Can't wait to see those referrals going out...! Cheering you on!!!! (and praying for you)

    Spring is just around the corner! (have to tell myself that one at least twice a day!)

  4. Girl, I have been feeling this way too! Ready to see the SUNSHINE and hear about some REFERRALS!!! :)

  5. Thank you for this post....I think we're all feeling this way. We are so far down at the bottom of the list that I didn't imagine I would be so emotional already but boy am I!!! I'm so ready to rejoice with those waiting so long at the top of the list for referrals! Praying the phones are ringing off the hook next week and kiddos are coming home with their families!

  6. Hey, Meredith! I, too, am hoping for referrals SOON! Back in October, somewhere around 15 referrals went out in about a two-week time frame. I'm really hoping that happens again, soon! I think it's really tough on all of us right now, but I know that God still has our best interests at heart. He's still orchestrating everything in the back ground, even when we can't see it. Praying......

  7. I think you are going to want to check out my most recent post...perhaps it will bring a little sunshine into your day!

    Much love,
    Future Mama