I also have been feeling a little dreary myself for the last couple of days. I am sure the weather isn't helping with this mood I am in, but I know that lack of referrals from our agency is a big part of this. We just got on the list in December and I knew that we would have a long wait and I don't personally expect to get a referral for our daughter for at least a year. However, I did think we would see some referrals going out. We worked so hard to make it on the list and now I feel like we are stuck. My heart goes out to the people at the top of the list who are waiting for that precious phone call. I would also love to move out of the 90s.
I really never expected the adoption process would be easy. I knew there would be lots of paper work, large expenses and long waits, but I didn't realize how emotionally difficult it would be. My heart breaks for the 145 million children who need families. I want to make a difference. I want to change the life of a child. My heart is broken.
One good thing about having a broken heart is that it causes me to cling to my Savior. I am constantly crying out to Him and I know He hears me. This waiting game is not easy, but thankfully I am not alone. Today I feel discouraged, but I know I won't stay this way for long.
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Cor. 4:16-18