One question that I seem to be answering a lot is, "When will she come home?" "Is it soon?" My standard answer is that it will be a while. First, we need to get on the waitlist and then we will wait 12-18 months for a referral. By the way, the social worker who is doing our home study, said she may be ready to send our home study to AGCI next week. I am really praying that happens! Anyway, I am still having a hard time with the inevitable wait time.
When we were trying to get pregnant the first time, it took us longer than we hoped and I started to think about adoption. We decided to become foster parents while we waited on God to answer our prayer for a child. It made perfect sense to us. We were waiting for children. There were children waiting for homes and families to love them, so we just did it. It happened so quickly and it was exactly what we were supposed to do. I have no doubt about that.
In the beginning of 2010, we felt the burden for children in need of families, again. We decided to pursue adoption. We didn't know where to start and we began to pray for God to lead us. I will be honest I wanted to choose the most quick and painless way to adopt a child. I mean, really, who says "please God lead us to our child the hardest, longest, most difficult way possible?" Um, not me! Well, I have found that things are not going to be quite as quick and painless as I would like. I know it could be much worse, and I am not complaining. I have found that this time God wants us to wait. He wants us to wait for the child he has chosen for our family. It hurts my heart to think that a year from now I will still be longing to hold my daughter. It is hard for me to think about waiting so long, when I know there are children all over the world who need homes now. I don't really understand it, but I know we are doing exactly what we are supposed to do.
One of the most important things I have learned through all of this is to just be obedient, whether God calls us to not wait another minute to do something, or if He asks us to wait for years on something that our heart desires. He will give us what we need, no matter what it is He is calling us to. He is teaching me so much and blowing me away with His blessings, and we haven't even technically began our wait.